Case No. 5: Big Girls Don't Cry

Da Da Da Da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center,
clarity, peace, serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center,
clarity, peace, serenity

[CHORUS]

La Da Da Da Da Da

*** need I say more?!***

Politician, me?!

I took this Ultimate Personality test on Tickle website (link on the side menu under Tambay dito)...

How You Approach Life

Politician, are forceful, innovative and popular with the masses.
You aggressively pursue your goals and you enjoy impressing people.
You have an unusual ability to read people and situations, which is why it's pretty rare for you to find yourself in compromising positions.
You're very up on the social rules that govern your life and you do your best to uphold them. You are smart and you have a lot to say on a lot of issues. In order to do that, you often find yourself in the middle of the room, educating people about the important matters of the day. And even when you don't have that much to say, people are attracted to your magnetic personality, wit and humor. They just can't help it when you're so charismatic.
You are extraordinarily driven by success and have cultivated a positive image to help propel you towards further excellence.
Your high self-esteem makes a nice match for your desire to look the part.
You know that how you look is a strong reflection of who you are on the inside.
At work, you are aggressive in setting and reaching your goals.
You are not afraid of asserting yourself or your ideas, and people often look to you as a model of how they wish they could be.
You're motivated to do a good job, and people know you're a solid, reliable person who can take the heat.
You're perfect for any work that requires personal interaction with your natural sense of showmanship.
So keep at it, Politician. The world is a stronger place because of you.


That's just the general description. The report is quite long to post in here...
Hmmmm, I'm a Politician?... the descriptions above suits me well... (but don't get the idea of being corrupt and balimbing politician...that I'm not going to be...)

I never wished to be in the office someday...I already have my share in the limelight...

A Love Story

When does a mistress become a wife?
When does a wife become a mistress?

Men from all walks of life: married, single, separated, widow, engaged, or in a relationship... must see the film...
...and realize how painful it is when they go astray in their commitment...
...and what pain they're causing...

Women too...
...and realize the hell that they'll go through choosing between love and righteousness...


When love will ever be enough?

Big Foot!

Hindi yan paa ni Kingkong... at lalong hindi kay Godzilla...

Paa ko yan... at may bukong-bukong (ankle) dyan (hanapin mo!)

Parang isang eksena sa pelikula na kung saan ang bida ay bumababa sa isang sasakyan, kuntodo porma, ganda... napahinto at napatingin ang lahat ng biglang... 'Ay!'

parang isang koro, sabay-sabay ang lahat ng nandoong nakamasid sa kanya. Ang bida nadapa, nahulog o natapilok...

Ako ang bida sa eksena... hindi ako nadapa at lalong hindi ako nahulog... isang pagkatapilok.

Mula sa isang pampasaherong jeep, pumara at ng pababa na... isang baitang na lang... Ayun sigawan ang lahat ng nakatingin... 'Ay Miss!' at ang nasabi ko lang, 'Shocks!' (poise pa rin).

Sa tabi ng kalsada, napaupo at pikit-matang tumayo... buong katawan pinagpawisan ng malamig...tinitigan ang paa, pinilit humakbang papunta sa sidewalk...

Dalawang mama ang lumapit, nakauniporme ng Barangay Tanod; 'Miss, na-sprain ba yung paa mo? Itatawag ka namin ng trycycle'

'Opo! Salamat po!'....

Pasalamat at walang bali sa buto ayon sa resulta ng x-ray... maga, sugat at pasa lang...

ngunit matindi ang sakit... hindi mailakad ng maayos ang paa...

Tatlong araw na hindi makalakad ng maayos...

Apat na araw na naka-bandage ang paa...

Limang araw na nag-sick leave sa trabaho...

At

Hanggang ngayon mataba pa rin ang paa ko... pero madali ng makita yung bukong-bukong...

Salamat sa mga taong tumulong at hindi nakalimot na mangamusta at salamat sa araw-araw na pag-check sa kin ni Kuya...

A little talk

I just had a little talk with someone I really admire... (I will not deny that I had a crush on him from the first time I met him). That crush grew into admiration... but honestly say, it was just like that... plain and simple admiration...

So, what did we talked about?

It's about the changes in my 'career' that'll be going through in the following months.

I was surprised that he was the first person to ask me what made me decide to take the bigger responsibility a day after I talked to my superiors.

No, I wouldn't say that he's a close friend, but he is a friend. True to the adage that you can't judge a book by it's cover. Marked by malicious descriptions by insecure people... the hell I care. He is one misunderstood person. I never heard him ill-speak against those people who mocked him and continuously talk behind his back. The hell he care...

Pity for those people who are blind to see the goodness in every human being.

My Train Moments

Light Rail Transit o LRT ang unang tren kong nasakyan. Naalala ko pa yung kwento sa Pagbasa kong libro noong nasa elementarya pa ko. Ayon sa kwento, nagkakagulo ang mga jeep, trak, bus, kotse at iba pang uri ng sasakyan sa pagtatayo ng isang mahabang tulay na may riles sa itaas. naiinis sila sapagkat abala sa trapiko ang ginagawang tulay na ito. At ng matapos ito lahat ng sasakyan ay nagulat ng may nakitang may tren na umaandar sa ibabaw ng tulay. Sabi ng jeep, 'aba! ang yabang naman nitong bagong sasakyan na ito, akala mo kung sinong matulin tumakbo'. sabi ng bus. 'oo nga at kung makapagsakay ng pasahero ay hindi nagtitira', at lahat ng sasakyan ay.... ah! hindi pala yan ang gusto kong ikwento...

Tuwing pupunta kaming Caloocan ni Mama, LRT ang sinsakyan namin mula Edsa/Pasay hanggang Monumento... at dahil bata pa ko nun, lagi akong nakatayo sa upuan at nakaharap sa salaming bintana, tinitingnan ang lahat ng gusali, daan, puno at karatula ng Jollibee na madaanan. Pero ang lagi kong inaabangan ay ang mga tila malalaking bahay na makulay at magarbo ang disenyo, na may mga buda sa pintuan...sabi ni Mama ko, Chinese Cemetery daw yun... (at oo, hanggang ngayon kapag nasasakay ako sa LRT, inaabangan ko pa ring madaanan iyon...).

Yung malaking orasan na kulay pula... Sabi ni Mama Orasan ng Maynila iyon. Bago dumating doon, yung malawak na lugar na may mapa ng Pilinas na nakalutang sa tubig... Tama, Luneta nga ang tinutukoy ko. Lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko noon, sana bumaba kami sa Luneta at mamasyal bago kami dumeterso sa pag-uwi, kaso hindi naman kami bumababa, hanggang tanaw na lang ako.

Laging masaya ang paglalakbay tuwing sumasakay ako ng LRT noon, hindi pa kasi siksikan masyado noon at higit sa lahat bida ako sa kwentuhan naming magpipinsan...

itutuloy....

Idiot Box...

I wonder what keeps you glued in an Idiot Box for hours?
What interests you?
What holds your attention?

I'll share my little delights when glued on the Idiot Box...
**Among the talk shows...foreign: I recently discover Ellen DeGeneres show... gosh! she is so funny, smart and very spontaneous... obviously being a stand-up comedian...Her frankness is not intimidating... and her wittiness is undoubtedly natural... it's very homy watching the show (check her site on the side menu of my blog). and get addicted to her...
**On the local talk show...: uhmmmm.... Teysi ng Tahanan... ay wala na pala ito... why can't they make a talk show like this... sensible and informative...
ahhhhh....Mel and Jay.... shocks! wala na rin pala ito... I love their tandem and the way they deliberate a topic... bakit ba kasi ni-reformat pa... too commercial...
hmmmmm....couldn't think of any... pass

**I watch Fab Five's Queer Eye for the Straight Guy... they are just so cool, very gay, intelligent, funny, outrageous with sense... Their show is inspiring.... seeing those so called straight guy's transformation from worst to best... it gives you hope that men can change...

**such freak shows like:
Mythbusters, Braniac, I didn't know that, How it is made... Ang kulet!!! pero super informative.

**I have Jologs favorites... yes! I watch these shows... Swear!
Totoo TV (ABC 5, Monday 7pm)- it's not your usual interview questions with your guests...anything goes...whatever question pops in Maverick and Ariel's fickle minds. Imagine such prominent guests answering not your T.V. typical questions...

Kay Susan Tayo(GMA 7, Sunday 1030am) - hehehe! I swear I watch this... it is very educational... right?!!! and Susan Enriquez delivers her spiels so well... hilarious, clever, realistic.

John and Shirley(ABS-CBN 2, Saturday after Pedro Penduko) - the comedy is classic. It just relaxes me watching their old antics.

Re-runs of Betty La Fea (Studio 23, Monday to Friday, 12nn) - my all time favorite telenovela period. (^_^)

Hallows...Horcruxes...

I've finished reading the last book of Harry Potter, at 3am last Saturday. I borrowed the book Wednesday from Ana and started reading right away... too excited, I finished reading 7 chapters while waiting for my samples...then thursday, too sleepy to read, so I let Harry wait for me... Friday after my day shift duty... till dawn I was reading...
- Naman!!! First few chapters pa lang, napaiyak na ko... (apektado masyado sa pagkamatay ni Mad-Eye Moody!)
- pero walang tatalo sa pagkaiyak ko ng mamatay si Dobey... waaaaaahhhh! (pag ito hindi ipinakita sa movie...ewan ko na lang... halos lahat kasi ng house-elf story sa book eh cut na pagdating sa movie)...
- pero bakit parang ang eengot ng mga death eaters noh?! kasi mga bata lang kalaban nila pero konting Stupefy!!! Expelliarmus!!! lang eh, lost sila.. oh! blimey...
- dragging lang nung after the wedding nina Billy and Fleur... 'zat chapters took 'zo long...
spending so much time Apparating and Disappirating... while in Grimauld place and other forests... (kaantok!)
- The Prince tales chapter... all the memories of Snape... I really have to munch every detail to fully understand everything...
- The war at Hogwarts excite me most... Imagine Neville Longbottom taking the stand to fight for Harry... and leading the D.A. while Harry was away... this is really inspiring...
and my all time favorite character, Severus Snape... you will appreciate him more than Dumbledore...
- the confrontation between Harry and You-Know-Who... (ayokong banggitin pangalan, baka under Taboo pa name nya kahit dead na sya...) as always more than exciting to read...(my imagination really flew with them...)
- and the other characters whom J.K. Rowling made to be the sacrificial lambs... so so sad... Fred, Lupin and Tonks...
- Harry, Ron and Hermione's adventure in finding the Hallows and Horcruxes is enough to keep my hands sticking to the book and my eyes fixed on every word i read and my brain working creatively more than ever...
- ok so much of my little review here... couldn't wait for the movie...
- the epilogue is so Bitin! that you'll beg for Book 8...

the moral of the story:
- er... do i need to write it up, when we all know what the Harry Potter series is all about...


Expecto Patronum! ( I wonder what will be my patronus...)

Sunset...

Sunset

melo-dramatic...
emotional...
romantic...
mushy...
dreamy...
wistful...
melancholy...
reflective...
pensive...
tender...
passionate...
remisniscing...
loving...
adoring...
longing...

sunset does not just ends the day but keeps the promise of tomorrow.

Monday...

Oh! it's monday today!

Yey!!!

while everybody is having their Monday sickness... I don't... simply because it's not my first day at work... having moving rest days keeps you off track of what day today is... sometimes, my off is Saturday and Sunday, sometimes Monday to Wednesday and sometimes Thursday and Friday...

I've finished reading the book One Hundred Years of Solitude last Saturday... I thought it'll take me one hundred years to do so... the almost same names of the characters confused me; aureliano, jose aureliano, jose arcadio, arcadio, aueliano arcadio, aureliano jose... (hahaha! may shortage yata ng pangalan noon). It is a perennial classic and the author, Gabriel Garcia Marquez is a Nobel Prize Winner, and the book is included in the Oprah's book club list. (ayan! binasa ko tuloy! pag pinagawa ako ng book report about it, patay na, babasahin ko ulet!). The book is about characters struggle on their madnesses, loves, beliefs, sacrifices... and finding their own solitude. The rise and fall of the town of Macondo based on the life of the Buendia family.... Whoa!!! akalain mo may natandaan ako....

next book....

I promise to read it in two days only....
syempre kasi may work pa ko....

ngayon pa lang, super thank you na kay Ms. Ana Maria Cabaluna sa pagpapahiram ng lahat ng Harry Potter books nya sa kin...

Yahooooo!!!! reading mode na naman ako...

Melay, nabasa mo na ba 'to? walang spoiler ha... kahit na marami na kong nabasang spoiler.... wehehehe!!!

Obedience

"All that Yahweh said we shall do and obey."
Exodus 24:7

This is an excerpt from Didache:
I like the way people in the Old testament saw everything in black and white. Good or bad. Life or death. Obedience and disobedience. Whatever God wanted them to do, it was either they followed it or not.

Right now it's hard to decipher what God wants me to do. Sometimes I wish He'd stop talking in codes and just tell me outright what He wants so I wouldn't be worried about being disobedient.

But then again, maybe God stopped giving me outright signs so that I would take time to seek His will. Maybe it's because He wants me to grow in Him, to know Him better. Maybe he stopped giving these signs so that I would obey Him with my heart, not just because I heard Him say what I should do. I'm pretty sure He hasn't stopped giving instructions yet - He just wants me to seek for it with my heart. Tina M.

DIDACHE (dee-da-ke) - the Greek word for teaching.
- is a quarterly Catholic Daily Bible Reflection Guide. It wishes to encourage the use of Sacred Scriptures among Catholics. It also wishes to reach the entire Christian people.

Fan ako

I already missed a week episode of Ysabella...
too bad for me, since it's the only teleserye I'm hooked now after Maging Sino Ka Man ended (syempre hintay ko ang Book 2 nito)...
I really like Juday's performance here; tough yet light. makulet na malambing, simple na nakakatuwa... and the fact that Juday's really blooming... (mag-fi-fitrum na nga ako!!! hehehe!)

and next week... I'll be missing more episodes bacause of my work schedule.... haaaaayy!!!

I really miss seeing derek....yummy!!! panalo appeal promise!!!

and the most of all...

fan ako ni aiza... wehehehe!
(walang pakialaman blog ko 'to!!!) (^_^)

Crossing the road: decision

when I'm at the brink of deciding whether to take that step forward or backward...
when I'm convincing myself that I'm not a coward...
when I'm choosing what to do next in my life...

I have decided... I'm taking the step forward...
I am convinced that I'm brave enough to take it...
I choose to add spice in my life...
I'm expanding my horizons...

Sunday - light and slow

It's Sunday... when almost everybody is chillin' at home... I'm workin'... Yup! after may 10pm duty last night... I'm now here at work again...at my 6am duty... (Parang hindi ko naramdamang natulog ako...) so, i'll take my sunday light and slow... with Wave 89.1 in the background... it's just soothing...

nothing pops in my mind to talk about right now since obviously all i wanted is to lie down in my bed and finished reading the book I've been reading for three weeks now, while it's raining outside... cool wind...it's just so calming...

ikaw? kwentuhan mo naman ako...

Happy, Sad, Happy

When I got home last night and watched Bandila, I was stuck in front of the T.V., Father Bossi is freed at last... Happy ako!!! (pero naman! timing sa SONA ni PGMA sa monday... magbibida na naman sya... haaaay!!!)

Tas, natulog ako almost 2am na... tas... nag-ring phone ko mga 4am....waaaahhhh!!! call-in sa work... pasok daw ako ng 6am kasi nag-SL yung dapat na nakaduty... Sad!!!

Tas, at work till 10pm pa ko... Sad pa rin...

Tas, buti na lang may internet ngayon dito...tas may nag-text sa kin na (sekwet!)... weeeeee!!! Happy ulet!!!

Crossing the road: deliberation

Been deliberating it for months... go or not... yes or no.. not or go... no or yes...
When I am most comfortably the queen of my workspace...
When I know all the sides of the story in my area...
When everyday seems to be just like yesterday...
When my enthusiasm in my work is slowly fading away...
When the challenge has become physically strenuous...
When there's no room for improvement anymore...

I have to keep on going or else find myself stuck in limbo...
My capability is being challenge...
I still have doubts, not on my ability to fulfill what are the responsibilities
but on something I can't explain...

Harry Pott.....er?

so, the 5th installment of the Harry Potter series is currently showing... Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix...
I watched the film with Zashi 3 days late from its opening date.
and what?
oh well, the film triumphantly executed what my imagination created while reading the book... Umbridge's character was well acted (galing!) and of course my all time favorite, Snape is a kick in the ass...
oh well again, if you are a HP fan, you sure get what the story is, but pity for those who just seem to get by the clamour... (bad trip yung katabi ko, kinukuwentuhan nung katabi nya! di ako nakatiis, nagparinig ako... ayun tumahimik!) naman, kaya nga series eh, dapat nasundan mo yung story... or else you'll be lost...
so the film as expected cut the side stories... (it's impossible to compact the 900+ pages of the book into a 2hr+ movie) to almost extinguished the houseelfs story. I was hoping to see the loveteam of Hagrid and Madame Maxime in their journey to befriending the giants... the Longbottom family in the hospital... Luna Lovegood's story... and the confusion between Harry and Neville as the one who survived the power of the Dark Lord as the prophecy tells...
but the fight scene between Dumbledore and Voldemort is great (kahit medyo bitin!)
and of course, the Weasley twins always marks in the movie...

since the story is getting deeper, I don't think it fits for the children. the long conversion between the characters tires your waiting for the action...

Still, it's harry potter, the boy who made reading for children and adults more interesting...

my POV:
it is more fun, enjoyable and interesting to read the book than watch the film... it is ones imagination that brings life to the story....

At last.... I'm having a date...

I have waited for this for so long...
finally...
I'm going to have a date with Harry...

dream challenge

it tops my wishlist...

from the very first time i've heard, read and seen it...

tinaga ko na sa bato....

gagawin ko talaga... pag-iipunan ko talaga...

and finally, it's my drean challenge come true....

Parasailing in Boracay with Weng and James.... the best water challenge we've ever tried... it's serene up there...it's a wonderful experience... got to do again....

next challenge.... scuba diving.... Wow! Pangarap!!!

Did you say challenges?

I've been exclaiming that I am up for new adventures in my life...

and that would mean taking the risks and making great decisions...

I started the year at peace but with tears...

I was heartbroken...

February, I went to Singapore with my best girlfriend, Zashi, to celebrate my birthday there visiting another dear friend, Melay...

with my hidden intention of covering up my pain...

.... and .... then what?

I still needed more activities to focus my time on...

and it didn't took long enough to get that sigh of relief...

The very first major decision I made...

Cut my 5 year-old long hair....

......everybody was shocked! including myself...

it brought a major change in my lifestyle...

less time in taking a bath...

no need for comb...

a little gel or leave-on will do...

tipid sa shampoo and conditioner...

mas mabilis akong kumilos...

except when i wake up....

I resemble Goku....

with my hair all up!!!

and yes, it was brave, courageous and bold of me to take that 5 minute-haircut.... that changed my whole outlook in life...