Without You

Are you
still there?

I've tried everything (and still trying) God knows, how much I am trying... so so hard to keep myself away from you.
I need to say this, (and maybe I don't know how or when or if you'll be able to read this).
I have to say this, it's crazy, it's insane, hell insane my life is, without you!
Why it has to be like this?
What happened? 
I don't know what else to do... Please tell me what to do...
Are you still there?

mornyt