Confusing

If you could only

tell me straight whether to just give up or still hold on...

There are times, when I'm about to give you up, but you'll be in my dreams. You'll be around me in strange ways, as if telling me to keep on holding on.

It's strange really, for I know you don't seem to care for me anymore, and that this blogsite doesn't exist in your net surfing world, my instincts tells me, or maybe I was just desperately hoping that the cosmic universe will conspire and this will reach you and touch you in any way.

If you could only tell me straight whether to just give up or still hold on...
You're the only one who could...