who?

You've been providing for your family...
You've been helping your siblings and your parents...

You've been always there for your friends...

but

who takes care of you?...

I'm Not Asking

i'm not asking for the world
and will never do
only a little of your time,
to share
a few moments
of happy talks
and
good laughs
about everything,
and anything
just like the old times...
I miss the old times...

I miss our old times...

just you

nothing in my thoughts...

JUST YOU

and it hurts

to know

that there's nothing

I could do

just to be

WITH YOU

So far away

...when only this song can express what's inside of me...

steal

Case No 18.: When love hurts

I was dumbfounded when a friend asked me this question: "Aura, when does love hurts?"; before I could answer, the infamous song , Love Hurts by Nazareth played on my mind:

Love hurts, love scars, love wounds
And mars, any heart
Not tough or strong enough
To take a lot of pain, take a lot of pain
Love is like a cloud
Holds a lot of rain
Love hurts......ooh,ooh love hurts

Oh well, who among us did not experience being hurt by love, by romantic love specifically? The only difference is the degree of hurt,the complexity of the situation, the depth of scar it left and the length of time we consume in moving on. We all have our fair share. From an unrequitted love, to pseudo-relationships, to love triangle, to the many complicated situations love has brought us and can still bring us to.
I remain in silence for few more minutes while I compose a straight thought in my head. I looked in her eyes and gave a deep sigh. The moment we decide to love someone is the same moment that we allow ourselves to get hurt by love, but the risk of not loving at all gives the same amount of pain.

Love like you've never hurt before...

I miss you, I miss us...

choices

Say it straight!

Say what you want to say straight, bulls eye and direct to the point. No more flowery words, adjectives and understood periods. To make no misinterpretations nor misleading statements nor double meaning thoughts. And the most important of all, to waste no time in deciphering, decoding what you mean.

I wish I could always do that, say what I want to say and express my thoughts or feelings directly to the person involved. Yep! I wish I could...always! But of course, truth is, as outspoken as you thought I am, I'm not.

As I would say that I always express myself on love and friendship irregardless if I'll get dumped or ditched, but, honestly, the hardest thing for me in composing my sentence/s is the thought of neediness... that as much as I would hide it in other descriptive words, I hope that message would simply be understood! But of course, truth is, oftentimes not.

Embracing my independency, admittedly expressing the need for someone to talk to on just about anything and everything, the need for someone who'll just sit beside you and be quiet, the need for someone who'll make your frowning face smile, or just someone whose on your same wavelength. When it doesn't have to be romantically, just someone whom you feel comfortable and at home, is always a great risk for me. It takes a lot of courage for me to say those words directly to someone. You know why? 'cause it always hurts when you were turned down...

The Hardest Words

The Hardest words for me to say:
3. I Love You
2. I'm Sorry
1. I Need You

Sukob Na

Tuwing umuulan ay naaalala tayong dalawa
Kay sarap isipin na may kasama sa buhay ‘pag bumaha

CHORUS 1
Sukob na, halika na
Sabay tayo sa payong ko
Hawak ka, kapit pa
Sa payong ko, magkasama tayo

Ohh ooh
(Sukob na, sukob na)

Hinding-hindi ka pababayaan na mag-isa sa ulan
Aalagaan, magtatawanan, wala na ‘tong iwanan

CHORUS 2
Sukob na, halika na
Sabay tayo sa payong ko
Hawak ka, kapit pa
Umula’t bumagyo, magkasama tayo

BRIDGE
‘Di ko na inakala pa na ika’y paririto
Ngunit salamat na lamang at dumating ka sa buhay ko

[Repeat CHORUS 2]

CHORUS 3
Sukob na, halika na
Sabay tayo sa payong ko
Yakap ka, kapit pa
Umula’t bumagyo, magkasama tayo

Sa payong ko, magkasama tayong dalawa
(Sukob na, sukob na)

For this time

For this time allow me to breathe slower and deeper...
let me feel the air that comes in and out of my respiratory system...
while my eyes are closed and only darkness I see...
no image of whoever or whatsoever...
just darkness and nothing else...

For this time allow me to listen only to my heartbeat...
let me feel how it's every beat warms and colds myself...
while my eyes are closed and only my heartbeat I hear...
no other sound nor noise nor music...
just my heartbeat and nothing else...

For this time allow me to keep my silence...
let me feel peace in my own world...
while my eyes are closed and only this I think...
no other thoughts on my mind...
just my own world and nothing else...

perhaps by then I would know...
perhaps by then I would know...

He said/She said

If you were a raindrop

No Words

When there are no words to describe what I feel,
And all I wanted is just to sit right next to you...
And perhaps, you hold my hand and whisper to me
...Don't worry, everything's gonna be alright.

never say goodbye

Wake up, Sleeping Beauty!

It's time...
to wake up...
from this
deep slumber...

I Fall All Over Again

When a friend posted a part of this song on her status on FB, comments flocked, including mine. Obviously, people in one way or another could relate to the song, in one way or another experienced the note that love hurts.
Yes, we've all been there and done that. We fall all over again on a blinded hope until realization of facing the truth comes... as time can only dictate when.

As I sing the song with all of my heart, I'll forever be thankful for that one colorful part of my life...

I Fall All Over Again
Dan Hill

I can't believe we met like this
Is it just coincidence
I had a feeling I'd be seeing you again
Your every bit as beautiful as the last time we met
When you told me, you were leaving, and going back to him
How I wish that I could tell you, it's all in the past
But I was never good at lying, and baby since you asked

I don't want to hear that song again from the night we first met
I don't want to hear you whispering, things I'd rather forget
I don't want to look into your eyes, cause you know what happens next
We'll be making love and then
I fall all over again.

I can't begin to tell you, just how sorry I am
That the man you built your dreams around, just broke your heart again
I think I know the feeling
Cause I once loved you so much
That I swore I'd rather die than live a day without your touch
If I held you in my arms you know, I'd never let you go
But this ain't the time or place to get emotional

I don't want to hear that song again, from the night we first met
I don't want to hear you whispering, things I'd rather forget
I don't want to look into your eyes, cause you know what happens next
We'll be making love and then
I'd fall all over again

I was crying when you kissed me
Than you walked out that door, Ohhh
You were always such a mystery
I still dream we're making love
Then I stop myself because

I don't want to hear that song again, from the night we first met
I don't want to hear you whispering, things I'd rather forget
I don't want to look into your eyes cause you know what happens next
We'll be making love and then
I'd fall all over again

I fall all over again

Halalan 2010

alas-dos ng madaling araw galing ng Bataan lumuwas na ko pauwi sa min para bumoto. alas-sinko na sa amin na ko, naabutan ko ng gising si mama dahil volunteer sya sa eleksyon.
sino ba ang hindi excited na bumoto kanina sa bagong sistema - 100% turn-around from manual counting to automation nationwide?
alas-diyes ng umaga na ko bumoto. ang haba ng pila, mainit, siksikan, buti na lang kasama ko si papa ko, di ko na kelangan pumila dahil senior citizen sya at damay ako sa pagpapauna sa kanila. hehehe!
nakakakaba markahan ng itim ang mga maliliit na oval shapes, pero pinaka-nakakakaba ang pagpasok ng balota sa PCOS machine, baka iluwa at hindi na tanggapin. hanggang lumabas ang Congratulations your vote has been registered
maswerte ang lugar namin at walang ganung aberya na nangyari at isang mapayapang eleksyon ang naganap.
kung di ka bumoto wala kang karapatan magreklamo!

time-out na muna ang mga entries na emoticons... we're making a new history here!
let's hope and pray for a better Philippines!

even just...

i looked at you,
a happy face,
a warm smile,
a gentle aura.

it made me
happy and sad,
excited and anxious,
it brought me
joy and pain,
peace and confusion,
love and hurt.

I know
it won't be long,
but for now,
allow me
to be just me,
to be someone
in your life
maybe a friend?
a good friend?
a best friend?
or just someone
who'll always be
beside you,
be there for you
no matter what...

i know
time will come
that i have
to let go,
leave,
and
move away...
and
I'm afraid
when that time comes
that I have to tell you
I need to go...
for I know
as much as
I want to hear from you
the words,
Please stay...
I won't hear it
or will I?

in your eyes
I'd like to stay...
even just for a while...

1202102019